Oups! A few weeks ago, I was suppose to make a smashing comeback but looks like I only had the opportunity to write 1 article. Bad bad Ben! Now, let’s get back to it.
On this 25th article of the challenge, we are asked to help ourselves on the switches of manliness series in order to identify the one we lack the most in our current life. The assignement is starting by saying: ”There comes a time in every man’s life where he just feels…meh. He’s not happy about things, but he’s not depressed either.” Oh boy… This quote is so going to help me recommit myself into this challenge…
Anyway, the serie introduces 5 switches: Physicality, Challenge, Legacy, Provide & Nature. So, let’s study all of them if I want to identify the one missing from my life.
Those of you who saw me IRL know that I am not a very physical man. I am a skinny guy who can be compared with a shrimp in France (I’m not aware for the metaphor in England, sorry). Always have (always will?) and the good side of it allows me to eat substantial amount of food without putting any weight at all That being said, I’m very glad to report my weekly performance: I now run at least 1 hour (or 10kms according to RunKeeper) in a week. It might not look very much but for me it is quite an achievement. I am not a sports guy (unless there is a TV involved), running was always hell in school thanks to this crapy PE teacher and I do not have a very acute competitive sense.
Even though, I’m very glad I found my way back to sport in the beginning of March (and thanks to nouille-h), sticking to my schedule and experiencing good sensation once my session is over. A few days ago I even tried this, to help getting in good shape. But it was a no-go: I couldn’t follow the pace, I wasn’t sure I was doing the right move… I stopped after 1min. Maybe I’ll try again, or I’ll try the Lafey method instead which is very popular in France.
Anyway, I’m feeling so good running (well, most of the time) that I miss my bike very much. I would also love play badminton again (the only sport I was quite good at in upper secondary school (geez, it is hard to switch from FR to UK school system!) and I possess some great and cheerful memories of climbing sessions from lower secondary school (memories revived by Rikk) that I desperately want to try again!
Sadly, even if I try to go out every day (and I grow tired of new place to go…), I must admit I spend most of my days sit down on a char or on the sofa. It surely is related to my current unemployment though; I hope everything I put in motion these past few weeks will help me getting back on the right tracks.
That’s why I believe this switch is ON and I hope it stays for long.
It might sound a bit dramatic but for the past 7 years, I didn’t had any other choice that to challenge myself in my everyday life. The problem is: it happened too soon and no one was around to see/help/talk/advise…
It started when I was 18. I won’t go into too many details in here but I sort of had to figure out how to live on my own while I started University. Long story short, it didn’t go well. At this point, I would’ve loved for someone to throw me something else to help me re-think my life. But it didn’t happened and I was stuck in my very own challenge, trying to succeed.
The second challenge occurred when I decided to drop out of university. The failure was formal. I did succeed some stuff but not enough to be really pleased with myself. I had to take yet another challenge. Somehow, like some sort of leap of faith, I left my apartment, packed all my belongings and went to England. I needed this 6 years ago but, better late than never I guess. And this challenge was a success. I met some very nice persons, had a lot of fun and it was the first stress-free period since University.
I tried to organise my comeback the best I could but once again, I failed miserably. It took me some time to find something else but eventually (with the gigantic help of my best friend) I managed to get a new challenge, something that could help me reach the next chapter of my life. I can be quite slow to establish all the means to this end but I really think I have a shot at this.
So, I consider this switch ON as well, but it looks like it is a much more fragile and sensitive one and I must keep an eye on it so it doesn’t flip back.
All right, this one is definitely switched OFF. I can’t think of anything right now that could help building my legacy or at least start one. But I still got plenty of time, haven’t I? I hope so.
They say: “It is often activated, just not in a very productive way.” And it looks like they are right about it. I’m always having trouble planning ahead because until today, it always felled apart. However, I try sometimes to put some things in motion like making a daily schedule but I no good at maintain it, even if I really want to. Maybe I see myself too much through others lately, I’m afraid I would be wiped out of the surface of this world if I started to act all independent, like I’m not important in the big scheme of this universe. But once again, I trust it would change when I manage to get things going on a professional level first (and then, maybe on the personal one).
Even if I claim to be an urban guy, I do enjoy some time at the countryside. It is indeed a great way to disconnect. And I mean it literally because where I go, there is no Internet and it is very difficult to get a proper 3G signal! Not sure about the fact it fights depression as I tend to believe loneliness can be a hell of a bitch but nature is sure is a place who promotes calmness and sharpness. It’s been a long time since I’ve slept in a tent and I kind of miss it. I nostalgically remember the summers when we spent our days outside, building sheds in the woods, biking all afternoon long and only went back home for dinner and bed. I would love to try hiking in the Pyrénées with a competent partner. I terribly miss those mountains. We used to go over there every year when I was a kid. And with our motor home, we spent extraordinary time in the mountains during summer.
So yes, this is a switch I would gladly turn back ON!